Wat r u lukin for buddy

Every one in this mob of ghoose is lookin for a few moments to illuse him/her self. But why its so...is it really necessary for a human to illuse, if he/she wants to live. Every one says that he/she wants to get something or someone special, I am helplessly looking for definition of this 'special' term. If something exists then only you can find it or it can happen so whats different with it why its so special in it if it already exists but its only we those are special because we couldnt find them timely. So instead for finding any thing special you first try not to be special:).